Amadare Blues

i’m FINE now. And i want to cosplay as never before. Hey! c’mon, before i cosplayed with 143 lbs., now i’m 111 and i ‘m in the need of a sammich!! i want to make my dream come true this year, i want to be Sailor Jupiter at least ;_;. And i’m buying all the thingies i can on eBay, i have the communicator, the “street wear” henshin bracelet (it cames with nail stickers of Luna!! i will wear them for an special occasion) … now i want the Tanbo, but i can’t find it (bawwwwwwww), also the phone…. i can’t find those two thingies on eBay… and i want to buy them ;_;

Also i want to finish Yoko. Maybe this week i will finish with the bra and i will go to pay the rescue of the boots. I’m not cosplaying since… lots of time in Santiago, so nobody here knows about my new body shape =S! and i want to show it *o* with Yoko and my Sailor Jupiter fuku *o* I already bought the jewels for the waist chain *o* I just need the transparent ball and the roses… i can begin to sense the pain in the arse to find a transparent ball that i can fill with roses X_x… but i have a surprise for the public! i will make the flower hurricane with show!!! mwahahahahaha thanks new year!!!!!

I know that my Jupiter will never be like Mew’s one, mostly because of the lack of budget. But is MY dream and i WILL fulfill it, and it will be my favourite costume EVER, just because i want to do it since i was 11. Well, i wanted to make the anime version at that time, but now i want to make the PGSM version because i loved the design so much (it’s very alike of the manga designs and i love them)

I’m like a child with my PGSM toys ;_; i want the tanbo ;_; and the phone ;_;

i’m a 23 years old girl that just want to fulfill her dream, let me be!!! (i’m wearing my street wear bracelet and i will never take it out! because you never know when a youma will appear!!!)

Oh, thanks for reading this strange blog (for the ones that read it). I know that sometimes i’m kinda depressive and so, but it’s my nature and i’m under treatment now. I promise that this new year will be more cosplay and less crying, i promise. Also, no more suicidal thinks. I promise.

I hope that all your wishes become reality next year, everybody!

a very big hug and have a happy new year!!!

I just want this year to end. soon

i was 50 point under the score i needed to join the career i wanted on the uni… so, next year will be about business, institutes and studying again for that goddamn test.

I’m not sad, i’m just… dissapointed.

but well, this is a cosplay bitcore, ne? i want to re-do Meer Idol soonest as possible. And now i know what fabrics to buy (thanks to Adella), i have the lilac one fot the top of the leothard, i need to buy the fabric for the white part and the skirt (the old one? i cannot put it on because it slips and falls (my hips where 20 cms bolder than now), and if i want to dance in my skit, then i’m fucked off , like in Brazil, that it fell down to my feet while i was on stage =_=)  So, next time i will go to Brazil, i’ll take ZILLIONS of pics with Diego, my personal Athrun (L)
and… we have a surprise on Gundam Seed with Pau and Pili =X i just can say that we will be boys xD what boys? well, Kira, Athrun and Shinn, but i cannot say who will be who xD

and for the next cosplay i will buy a big green tshirt and i will DESTROOOOOOY IT and i will cosplay Big Nell from Bleach (yeah, me, again, cosplaying Bleach… why? i liked to destroy clothes as i did with Ryune LOL xD, and Pili has a green curly wig lalalalala)

weird, a not whining post xD, i’m kinda “happy” tonight and i don’t know why =s

Finally, Fabian ended my rifle, and i’m completely IMPRESED with his skills. As a fellow /m/an said, it’s insanely accurated. Now, i just need the money to pay he and pay the rescue of my boots to be a good Yoko

well, no moar talking, there’s the pictures. Look at the red led? ^o^ isn’t it lovely?

WARNING. THIS IS A WHINING POST. IF YOU WANNA READ, CLICK ON READ MORE. IF NOT, THEN GTFO

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Well, some weeks ago i found all Sailor moon manga scanlations. I readed all the 18 volumes in a week. I don’t like to read on the pc because my eyes get tird so fast, but i NEEDED TO READ IT!

Then, i started to want to watch the live action. Since i kinda like tokusatsu, i LOVED IT (i think that i’m one of the few people on the universe that loves it xD)…

*flashback*

When i was 8 or 9, i started to watch Sailor Moon on an Argentinian channel called magic kids (i used to have cable tv). I loved the series. But more than this, i loved Sailor Jupiter. She was kinda a model to follow “when i grow up and get her age”. I had brown hair (that brown), greyish blue eyes, and i started to wear my hair like she, I bought a pair of earrings like hers (and my ears hurt a lot because i’m allergic to everything but silver and gold), the calypso balls for the hair and started to act like she. Well, i was a little girl and that was… understandable. My first anime series was Sailor Moon and i love it with all my heart. I also saved money for a whole year to buy the Sailor Moon R movie book (it’s one of my treasures, i was on 7th grade….)

*flashback*

And on Kari’s birthday, everybody said that they wanted to cosplay from the live action. OK, i said, finally i could be Mako chan and get around with my friends without being a hueg manatee (i’m so thin now).

And so, Neptune will be in another place and all my efforts are going for sailor jupiter now. I LOVE SHE, and the actress that made she is my idol too (Mew FTW)

oh god… and now my money is disappearing. I bought both of henshin bracelets (the big one and the “common life” one… well, i didn’t buy it yet, i’m at 3 hours of win the bid and i hope i will win) and i want t commission the brooches with somebody that knows how to make things on resin… there’s a girl on eBay that works great but she don’t dispatch to Chile… i sent her a message about commission the 4 brooches and i hope she can make them…

oh, i’m so cheered up with this costume, i’m going to be Mako chan at least… but again, Yoko’s first.

Promise fullfiled =)

Yey! i’m back from my ultra quick trip to Temuco. We (Seigi no Robot+Trasformers.cl+UNSpacey, A.K.A. proyecto-robot.cl) were invited to their pro-Teleton convention. I didn’t wanted to participate in the cosplay masquerade, but i wanted to cosplay, so i ideated something cool just for the stand, with old clothes i had on my house and haven’t weared for ages. Something specially for my stand, so  mecha related that nobody that didn’t know SRW (super robot wars or taisen, whatever) would recognize me xD.

Ok, I started to cut an old tshirt (to show my tummy…), then i toke my old favorite pants (that are so weared out that i can’t use them for normal life) and i barely… destroyed them xD. Just a little (well, if you considerate a little to cut off a whole leg and destroy with an exacto knife the other xD). Dani adjusted the other leg to make it the 80’s look, i called Pili for her blonde “jack of all trades” wig (that one all of us weared in the life, it’s a cheap party wig that looks SO natural, it don’t shine as hell and it haves lots of hair, it’s the pretiest party wig i’ve seen in my entire life. Oh and the expression before was taken from a dictionary, i’m not sure about if the use is the correct, but is a wig that we use as a joker or as a wild card EVER). Then, i bought two of those elasticated hairbands. I made my wristbands out of one and the other was used as a hairband.

and PRESTO! Ryune Zoldark from Super Robot Wars! I was the Valsione’s pilot finally ^^ (oh dear… i will… I WILL cosplay Valsione someday…)

I’m happy with the results. Maybe a little shy because i was on the first day of my period and my tummy was a little inflamed, so i didn’t looked perfect in some pictures… well, this is the first and only costume that fits my new body, so i will use it till it becomes to dust. It helped a lot with my self confidence, and it’s a little step forward to my Yoko costume. I’m still a little unsure about skimpy costumes because i still have the mental image of my old shape, but i hope that it will change in the future. I’m starting to left back my alimentary issues so it’s very possible that i will still dropping weight for a while, then it will stop and i will need to start to go to a gym to tone up a little.

btw, this is the first costume made almost in a 90% by me (just Dani helped me a little with the pants). I’m very proud of that, i’m starting to forget my fear of making the things by myself.

I will post pictures in int evening, i’m sooooo tired now and i will sleep for a while after.

Thanks guys for the wonderful saturday. Specially Felipe (Ryusei) and Felipe (Hal), i love you both guys. And yeah, i will post my pics on “our secretet mecha place” (lol) tomorrow, after a little retouching on photoshop (why i still have black circles under my eyes EVEN when i was wearing two layers of concealer,  foundation AND powder? WHY!?)

I’m just making a copy-pasta from my cosspace blog… with a little modifications because there was some repeated content.

I want to cosplay, badly. I really envy the people who can sew and one day wake up and say: oooh, i really want to cosplay xxxxx from xxxx. Oh and i have money for the fabric!!!. Let’s go to buy everything and let’s start making the patterns in the afternoon!!!… If i just… could sew straight, cut straight and make my own patterns or even learn to modify them… I have a big pile of fabric and projects that maybe never will be make…

I’m tired of asking help from my friends because i feel like a charge for them. Then make their own costumes, and i don’t want to load them with more work. And, how is a favor, i can’t ask for quickness or accurrateness. How i blame this damn brain i have,…. i just want to learn tu cut and sew, that’s nothing from another world… for normal people. But for me is like trying to fly with funfoam wings…

Uh, a happy new (this blog is being sad as hell lately) i got my first international wig commision! yay! Diego asked me about an ichigo-ish wig, and i will carry it with me when i come to Brazil to see the JAM Project in july =) I’m so happy about that, and i’ve already choosed the base wig for it. I just hope to do a good job with that, i really feel Diego like all of my chilean friends, he IS my friend, and i don’t want to dissapoint he. He’s so cute and i really love to talk nonsense with he. And we talk in english *LOL* (i can understand portuguese very nicely but… oh well xD) I just want to come back to Brazil to take piles and piles of pictures with he and his awesome friends.

And yes, my favorite cosplayers in Chile are Kabu and Pili. So WHAT. They’re cute and skilled as hell.

Tito wouldn’t cosplay with me for AF. And it’s very probable that Kabu neither (because she’s going with her best costume to date for the yamato cosplay cup competition… she already won a contest on the US with that costume so i’m completely sure that she will win one of the vacants for the finals, that are the same day of the sexy cosplay, the categorie we were competing for (tito as kittan, kabu as kamina, vero as simon and me as yoko)

Now, i don’t have any cheers to finish my yoko. My tummy don’t dissapears, I don’t have any time to order the hair for my extension and in december the mail becomes weird as hell. I have the bra, the gun, the belt and in nov. 30th. my bots will be ready. Also my hotpants aren on the way. But i don’t feel confident about my body, and i really don’t want to participate alone

(if you want to read abut my loser thinks and my sickness and all, then press on the “read more” link, then, just leave, is tl;dr, a lot of whynning and everything that’s not cool. It’s you decision) (as if somebody readed this blog…)

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